Saturday 9 November 2002

Have you ever wondered how long it would take for people to find your body if you killed yourself? Ever wondered, how many people would wonder what happened to you if you dissapeared for a while? How many days would it take before people found my body? If I have 2800mg of my medication, which is 7 times the amount that can be safely taken in a 24 hour period, and I take it all at once, how long would it take to kill me? Happy thoughts right? I don't know what to do, or where to go. I can never have what makes me happy. It really sucks knowing you can never have the person you love. It really sucks not being able to do what makes you happy. I feel empty and numb, so what does that make me? I'm lost, I could take this opportunity to set things right in my classes, but I just don't care. I don't know if I care enough to set them right, I know I should but I lack the motivation. Does there come a day where the phoenix can no longer rise?