Monday 21 October 2002

People must think I'm stupid. My ex IMed me again appologising for hurting me and pissing me off, wanting to hang out and wanting sex. I'm no idiot, nor will I be toyed with. I will not take him back again, it would be foolish. I'm worth more than that, I deserve more devotion than that. He can be a sweet guy, but he's restless. And I'm ok, I'm not going to let this get to me. I'm calm and quite relaxed, thanks to the full moon. I know who I am, I know what I want, and no one is going to take me from my path.

A sense of self-worth is the best defence anyone can have, and I thank Gaia for giving me a purpose and sense of worth. Its really amazing what nature can do, and how it can make you feel. I know a lot of people can't understand that, so many of us are removed from nature. But there are a few of us who still keep it close. Somehow being connected to vast powers that we can never fully understand is soothing, and that is where I find my inner peace, in nature. Each of us has a source that we can tap into for serenity, it just may take longer for some to find theirs.

Thanks for playing.