Saturday 7 December 2002

My Thanksgiving break was alright; in a way it was a bit of an awakening. I always knew that my views were different from those of my family, but over the break I began to see just how far I have drifted from them. I don't know if I want to go back home after college, I don't know if I could live there. But I did get to see one of my best friends while I was home. I spent two days with him and his family, it was relaxing.

As for my 3 week class, well for statistics its going ok. But nothing too exciting. I've been trying to calm myself by going out to the Portage county Animal Protection League and the college field station. It helps for a time, but I find that once I get back to my dorm room everything is still there floating over my head.

I feel torn in two actually. I'm worried about a close friend who is having self destructive thoughts and it really bothers me. But at the same time I know that no matter how much I want to, I can't save him. It has to be something he does for himself, and I'm scared. I don't know what to do, but I'm willing to do what I have to to help him.