Only One of Us Was Strong Enough

A Best Friend is the only guy I have ever had "a song" with... but he wasn't strong enough to handle the distance.


Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you,
That is how I know you go on

Far across the distance
And spaces between us
You have come to show you go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never let go till we're gone
Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life we'll always go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on (go on)
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

You're here, there's nothing I fear,
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on



Enjoy your new life Brian.

Ring and Bracelette No Longer Bind Me

Mmm so I found out last week that Brian and I are no longer friends. Apparently that ship salied four years ago. I'm part of his closeted life and he is not ready to combine that with his non closeted life. I left, I went away so he had to find new people to confide in. Didn't realise that distance had anything to do with who you could confide in. Whatever, I am the person he has been the closest to in his life and to just throw that away because he came out of the closet is rediculous. Maybe he's just pissed because none of his boyfriends have been able to give him the emotional support I did. Maybe he knows that he will never get that kind of support from another guy and now he hates me for ever letting him know that that degree of emotional support exist. Whatever, I don't have the time or energy to figure it out. I'm not chasing him, that's something I stopped doing years ago and its not something I will resume. I've put myself through the ringer once for Brian, I won't do it again, especially when he doesn't want me to stand beside him. So now I'm bound to no one; the two men in my life that I thought would never abandon me have. So now, like the engagement ring from Jason, the family bracelette from Brian is in its box.